ASKING GOD "WHY?!"

WHERE I WAS

I had come home from work expecting to find my teenage daughter at home. She had been making some bad choices lately and was suppose to go straight home after school, but she wasn't there. I looked everywhere, called all of her friends, drove to all of their houses...no one had seen her since school. I walked into her room and collapsed on her bed just sobbing; crying out to God, to save her, protect her, and help me find her.

As I laid there in a broken heap, I kept thinking about Job. I went to church on Wednesdays and Sundays. Sure, I smoked, drank a little, but I was just as good a “Christiaan” as my friends. I kept asking God why?!? I do what I'm suppose to do! Why are you letting this happen? I’m a good Christiaan!!

HOW GOD ENCOUNTERED ME

I didn’t really read my Bible because I found it hard to understand. But for some reason I couldn’t stop thinking about Job. So I pulled my Bible off of the shelf, dusted it off and opened to the book of Job. I came to Job 38. I remember it like it was yesterday.

“Who is this who darkens counsel By words without knowledge? Now prepare yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me. Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding.” ‭‭Job‬ ‭38‬:‭2‬-‭4‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Those words pierced through into my very soul. In that moment, I understood I was an ignorant child demanding answers from an omnipotent God. But rather than feeling belittled or reprimanded, I felt like He wanted me to know, know Him. That He was trying to explain to me His greatness, Not to scare me, but to comfort me!

“Have you commanded the morning since your days began, And caused the dawn to know its place,” ‭‭Job‬ ‭38‬:‭12‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

As I continued reading I understood. He knew exactly where she was, exactly what she was doing, and He was able to protect her, guide her and save her.

MY LIFE NOW

That was the first time I truly heard His voice. My life was never the same after that night. I began to devour the Word, wanting to hear Him again. He was no longer a far off distant God; He was my strength, my comforter, my guide, my savior, and MY GOD!

He showed me that night that He was able to lead, guide, save and protect my daughter; and He did! It was quite the journey, He lovingly transformed us both along the way, and became her salvation as well!

Trusting Him in Sulphur, LA