BROKEN ADDICTED MESS

WHERE I WAS

Before Jesus I was a broken mess. Addicted. Full of lust. Depression. Anxiety. Unworthiness. No self esteem. Just a broken and empty vessel.

HOW GOD ENCOUNTERED ME

In 2017 my addiction had gotten so bad I was drinking 2 5ths of whiskey a night. It got to the point where my mom hid my kids from me (we were living with her at the time) and said it was either the streets or rehab or I wouldn’t get them back.

To summarize-- I went reluctantly, after swallowing a handful of sleeping pills in hopes of not waking up. After a week in detox, I went to rehab. About 2 weeks in, I called my mom to come get me. She wouldn’t. This was the first time she didn’t bail me out. I hit my knees and told the Lord ‘alright, if You’re there, here’s Your chance.’ He met me in that run down rehab room.

MY LIFE NOW

He showed me He was faithful, even when I wasn’t. I grew up in church, was pushed away from the church, and rebelled as hard as I could. Through revelation, He showed me through every season and every circumstance, He never let go. He was the Good Father my heart so desperately needed.

I don’t even know the person I used to be. I have joy, peace, patience. He’s still working on the kindness 🤣 but I have self control. I went from never thinking I would do anything more than work at a gas station (7 years ago) to running multiple successful companies and becoming a licensed realtor. More than any of that though, I am someone people look up to now, instead of someone people look down at. I have hope for the future. I have an identity. I have HIS identity.

New & Free in Sulphur, LA